Sunday, December 26, 2010

Not so sure about "Happy Holidays"

This year I am definately a Scrooge. Minus the money of course. I used to love Christmas. All the lights, getting together with family, giving presents...This year, not so much. I bought my ticket present for my niece and I bought my mom a present because I would feel horrible if this was her last Christmas with us and I didn't get her anything.

I used to be an optimist, and have become a pessimist. 2011 is supposed to be an exciting year, I graduate from college and quite possible will go on to get my masters. All I see in the future is pain and heartache. I am completely miserable.

I am happy the holidays are over, all the obligatory "partying" is done for another year. New Years is nothing here at home. My mom and I usually go to bed early since everyone else has plans. Its just another normal night here. I actually work the entire day, from about 8:30 in the morning till about 9:30 or 10 at night anyway, so going to bed early will be nice. Then its the weekend where I will pack to head back to my apartment on sunday, and school starts again on the 3rd.

I am angry, sad, disapointed and anything else that falls into that category. Everything but happy. I try to fake it for moms sake, but I think she's catching on already. Yesturday on our way to my brothers she told me I should have a good time, not think of anything else, and today on our way to my aunt and uncles she asked me if  I was happy. Of course I told her I was, but I lied. How can I be happy when this could very easily be the last Christmas with her? How can I be happy when I know she has cancer in her body she will never get rid of? How can I be happy when all this news comes to us on the eve of the anniversary of my fathers death? How can I be happy when I am the only one this even remotely bothers? My brothers act as though nothing is wrong, as does my mom. Maybe I am just being paranoid, I don't know. But I like to be real too. I can't pretend mom isn't sick like everyone else does. I just can't.

Sorry to anyone who reads this, but at least you know now that if I am not my normal chatty, friendly, happy self when you see me, this is why.

 All I have to say about this Christmas season is Bah Humbug!!

Monday, December 20, 2010

The end of the 30 day challenge

Last week was exams, therefore I did not end up blogging my 30 day challenge for the past 4 days. And since it's 1 am, technically it is already the 5th day which would bring me to the end of the challenge. So I am just going to do all five posts right now.

Day 26: A picture of something that means a lot to you
commuter family

biological family
My Family and Friends are what mean the most to me...

Day 27: A Picture of yourself and a family member




Me and my oldest brother Sheldon on our family hayride at Thanksgiving.


Day 28: A Picture of something your afraid of
I don't have a picture for this one, as I don't want one really. But right now the thing I am most afraid of is losing my mom to cancer. The wound is still far to fresh with my dad, and I don't think I could handle losing her too. So keep praying the cancer will leave her body.

Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile

the best friend I ever had, my sweet Alex. I miss him:-(

Day 30: A Picture of someone you miss

Well, sadly I thought I had a picture for this, but apparantly I don't know where it scanned to on my computer. But at any rate, this was a no brainer to me, I miss my Dad. ALOT!!! Especially at this time of year. Today (technically yesturday, the 19th) it was 7 years ago that we saw the first real sign things were going bad and fast for my dad, 5 days later he passed away...enough said for now, as I have a hard time talking about it right now, even on the computer and frankly I don't want to cry myself to sleep tonight.

Well, that was an interesting 30 days. I didn't think I would actually make it. I may have had to bunch some posts together, but needless to say I got it done. I actually learned some things about myself through this, namely I don't have near enough pictures to describe my life through a blog post :-P. At any rate, I hope you enjoyed reading it. See ya soon.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Really? I mean, Seriously?

Can I say I am just a bit excited that this long and arduous semester has almost come to an end? I thought this time would never come. It's been tough, but I am officially (almost) done my last 'first semester' of college. It sure does not feel like 2 and a half years have passed. 4 years ago, if someone would have told me that I would be graduating from college in 2011 I would have laughed in their face. I probably would have even peed my pants laughing, thats how much I would not have believed it. But in fact, here I am only 4 months away from a Bachelors Degree in Social Science. And with a periodic job search to see whats out there, I may not even go on to get my Masters just yet as there are jobs in Social Work that are in the area I want, and better yet, I don't need to have a BSW. Soooo, decision time is here. I will still apply to Seminary, but I will be looking for a real job too. Here's hoping I can find a job I want and just start making some money. Well, gotta go study for my last 2 exams. Wish me luck:-)

Day 25: A picture of your day

Thats right, exams today, and this is how I feel about it. One exam today, one tomorrow, and one on friday. Then I am officially done my last first semester of college. 4 more months and I graduate.

I had to add this picture in as well, cause this is totally me when I write exams...:-)

Day 24: A picture of something you wish you could change

Besides some of the obvious issues, like my appearance, the biggest thing I would like to change is the amount of student debt/all other debt I have. And mostly just the amount of money going into my account so that debt can disppear. But that picture about sums up how I feel about the money I owe the government for helping me go to school. Although I have to admit they have been pretty nice and have given my close to $10,000 in burseries towards my student loans, so I guess I can't complain too much.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Catch up time again...Days 19 - 23

Okay, so technically I am already 5 days behind on my 30 day challenge. It's been a pretty hectic couple of days I guess. Without facebook, I forget to go online sometimes. I love it. Also pretty happy that this is only a 30 day challenge and not a 365 day challenge, because we can see already I would not do good at that. So here are the last 5 days, starting with...

 Day 19: A picture and a letter
          
Dear friends,
I want to thank you all for being such an important part of my life. Each one of you will never know how much of an impact you have made on my life. Some of you may not even really know how much I look forward to seeing you and talking with you, and how that brightens my day when it happens. Please know that I pray for you and thank God for each one of you on a regular basis. I love you all.
Love always,  Momma T


Day 20: A picture of somewhere you would love to travel
Well I sort of think I did this one earlier, perhaps on Day 15, but I will add another to the list. The others were more like vacay places, this is a place I would like to go maybe on a missions trip one day, that is Tanzania...

I would like to work in a mission orphanage here, of course I found a beautiful picture to post, but alot of the country is not like this and is very poor.

Day 21: A picture of something you wish you could forget
Wow, this is a tough one. I don't know what I wish I could forget. Or at least the things I wish I could forget I don't have nor want to have pictures of. Why would I have pictures of something I want to forget? The thing that comes to mind of something I want to forget is a blind date I went on. Lets just say that maybe when I have my counselling psych degree I might be able to help him... the only time he talked to me was in the 5 minute car ride he gave me home, and I heard all about his depression issues and other such problems in his life. Something I don't want to remember...

Day 22: A picture of something you wish you were better at
Playing piano. I sooooo wish I could play, and play good.

Day 23: A picture of your favorite book
Sorry, its not just one, but rather a series of books. I love, love, love the Redemption Series by Karen Kingsbury which then spawned into the Firstborn Series followed by the Sunrise Series, followed by the Take One Series (not pictured) and a new series that I have not yet read and do not yet own. I recommend everyone to read them, they are awesome books, and not just for girls.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Day 18: A picture of your biggest insecurity

I hate this picture because it's not a very "flattering" pose. And there, my friends, is my biggest insecurity. My body. I hate how I look, my weight, everything.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Day 17: A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

Well, as most of you know, in the past few months my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and we have gone on a crazy ride since. Everything I had planned for these past few months has changed completely because of this. So that has had the biggest impact lately, not a good impact neccessarily, but an impact none the less. Not to mention that we are slowly heading closer to the 7th anniversary of my fathers death. That making it even bumpier a ride right now.

PDA

Lately I have seriously been bothered by the amount of PDA (public displays of affection for those who don't know) going on everywhere. I work at the mall, and you would be surprised to see how many people (in Steinbach) stroll through the mall, stopping every 10 feet to kiss. Seriously, you are shopping, if you can not stay off each other for that long GO HOME!! I also feel this way about people who can't stop touching each other. Like they have to stay connected  the entire time they are in each others presence or else one of them may disappear. They are ALWAYS holding hands, almost sitting on each other (or sitting on each other) hanging off each other. If you truly like/love each other, one or the other won't run away.
Another pet peeve of mine is when groups of friends hang out and one couple will constantly be kissing, giggling and whispering like they're in their own world. Well they are, but unfortunately their friends can see them and have to put up with the awkwardness. My answer to this is, GET A HOTEL ROOM. Your friends don't want to see this, and if you still want to hang out with your friends you need to consider their feelings too.
I may be an old single lady who has dreamt of her dream man often. But I can say that if the only way I can have that man in my life is through extreme PDA, forget it, not happening. I think its totally fine if one of the pair is leaving and wants to give the other a peck on the lips goodnight, but leave it at that. And if its entirely necessary to do more then that, leave the room so not everyone has to witness.
One more pet peeve to leave here tonight and that is the constant referencing of "the boyfriend/girlfriend". You know what I mean, the emphasis on "my boyfriend says this" and "my girlfriend says that". Like I get it, you're in a relationship, now let it go. Also when everything that comes out of your mouth has to be about the person your dating in some way shape or form it tells me you are not seeing enough of the world. Just to add the single reference in here, think of your single friends who you constantly exclude, make feel bad or even sometimes a little envious when you constantly reference everything in life to your significant other. They get it, your dating someone, you like them, but do they have to constantly hear about it?
I have friends who fall into the PDA/pet peeve category and I have friends who are dating but you would barely know it. And to them I say, "good on ya, way to keep the intimate parts of your relationship to yourselves."
Thats my rant, sorry you had to hear it, but I needed to leave it somewhere.
My name is Theresa Reimer, and I approve this message.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Day 16: A Picture of someone who inspires me

Probably one of the people that has inspired me the most lately is someone I did a presentation on in my Social Problems and Change class, Craig Kielburger.
He is now 27, but at 12 years old he created the organization Free the Children because of an article he read in the newspaper about a 12 year old child murdered for his social activism towards bonded child labor. It's a super interesting story and very inspiring. Check out the link above and read all about it. You might be inspired too:-)

Sunday, December 5, 2010

A few of my projects in the last couple weeks...

So I've been slowing down in homework, and speeding up in crocheting. I love to create things, so here are the projects I worked on in the past couple weeks.
 Here is everything together... touque and scarf set x 2 and a cup cozy...
 The cup cozy. My lovely friend Felicia found this pattern and wanted me to teach her how to make it. I needed to make it first so I knew what I was doing. Then my mom suggested the decorations. I think its cute...
 My favorite winter project, argyle toque and scarf set. The one's I've done in the past are very girly looking so this year I thought I would make boyish ones...so here is the dark green one with the tassel on top...
And the greyish/green set sans tassel. Not sure if I will put one on yet.

So if you want one, let me know, I love having projects to do...

Oops, falling behind again. Here's a two for one...

Day 14: A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without -

My Mom


Even after her mastectomy she still has her crazy sense of humour. Here she is trying to make her shirt "look" like she is well endowed and "perky" just a week after her surgery
Day 15: A picture of something you want to do before you die
Travel to...

Spain, and see the Spanish Steps along with all the other wonderful views

Italy and ride a gondola through Venice

see the absolute beauty of Greece.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Day 13: A picture of your favorite band or artist

Wow, there was a time when this would have been easy to answer for me, but now, not so much. I don't really have a favorite band. So, I thought I would entertain you with pics of my obsessions through my years of growing up.

First there was the Hard Rock obsession in my Jr. High years...


I thought I was gonna marry Joe Elliott one day (the tall one in the middle)

And of course the awesome hair band, Poison. Aren't they hot in all their bleach blondness??
Then somehow I moved from Rock bands to Boy bands...

Good ole' New Kids on the Block
A memory I am sure my family would like to forget. After the boy band faze I moved onto country music, and got to meet this fellow a couple of times...
Paul Brandt
Though I stayed in the country faze after that I also moved on to a new Boy band love...
Backstreet Boys
Thats right, I was, and still am somewhat, a BSB fanatic, thought Nick Carter was hot, even though he was like 5 years younger then me.
Now I have to say my current favorite would probably have to be the hottest Aussie in the world, right up there with Hugh Jackman...
Keith Urban
Yuuuuuummmmmmmm, and he is a dang good musician too. But it doesn't hurt that he is super easy on the eyes.

There you have it boys and girls, well probably just girls but whateves, I have aired my dirtly laundry on my past and present musical obesessions. You can laugh now...

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Day 12: A picture of something you love

So apparantly this one has a unanimous vote from everyone that knows me...can you guess what it is?
Thats right, I am a Pepsi-a-holic. And recently I found out Coke is a supporter of sweatshops, so I thought this picture was quite fitting.