Frustration

Ok, so I have not posted in awhile, sue me. A lot has been going on and therefore less time for blogging. Guess the first piece of worthy news is that I have a boyfriend. Definately one of the things that keeps me from having the time to blog. Of course, I would never have a boyfriend in the most conventional way, no I have to go for the long distance romance. Thats right, lets make it as hard as possible. So I know some of you may be wondering how I got into this relationship, and I can immediately answer that question rolling around in your head, No, I did not meet him online. Although that seems to be our soul place for dating at this point. I met Manuel through my dear friend Francesca. Francesca is from Peru, Manuel goes to Frankie's church in Peru. When Manuel and his mom Eva came to Canada this past winter for a visit Frankie introduced me to him and it was love at first sight, or something like it. At any rate, there has not been a day that goes by where Manuel and I don't talk. I only met him once in person, unfortunately he was leaving back to Peru only a few days after we met and our schedules just never worked to meet in person again. So thats the long and the short of it. We have probably squeezed 6 months of dating in 2 months through email. We have had all the serious, soul searching heart to hearts that one could possilby imagine, we are just missing the physical connection right now. And I feel that. Not the sex connection, please do not mistake what I am saying for that. But you need to have a physical connection with someone you love, and I feel that missing. I love everything else about Manuel, and know that I want to marry him. I also know that this is part of God's plan for us, but I still need to have that physical connection. Of course, that is coming but not soon enough. Manuel is flying out here on April 12 so he can be here for my grad. I think thats so sweet. And he is staying here for almost a month. I am looking forward to that time. I just wish it was now. Do you know how hard it is to do school work when you just want it to be done already? I don't even care anymore, thats sad. One month left and I have all but given up. Why can't I end this season of my life with a bang? It's frustrating. I want to do good on my last papers, yet have no motivation or care if they get done. How does that work? Anyway, enough ranting from me. I should just be happy for the position I am in, be happy for all the wonderful things God has blessed me with, because many do not get the opportunities that I have recieved. On that note, have a wonderful day everyone.